a very tired update

[sebenikela]

I am in University Town. I went to a friend's thesis defense this afternoon to remind myself of the protocol for these things and talked to some people afterwards. I got a lot of "I didn't recognize you at first!" which feels somewhat odd, but whatever, I guess it has been since December 2016. Everyone has been friendly.

My defense is on Monday, and there's a bunch of stuff I need to get ready before then. Mostly logistics, but also two presentations, both mostly recycled but still, it's work. My advisor has apparently planned Events for Monday, which suggests that he doesn't hate me for being a disaster human fuckup for the past two years. So that's nice. But also: defense, reception, lunch, seminar, dinner, all in one day? I am going to be wildly overdrawn on social interaction brainpoints.

I did get to watch Free Solo on the flight (cc: rydra_wong) and it was quite good. I would like my amygdala to take just a FEW cues from Alex Honnold's--like, i don't need to free climb anything let alone fucking El Cap, but it would be nice if "I should go over and say hi to some people at a social thing in an hour" didn't make my hindbrain think it's about to be eaten by tigers. (I probably have more thoughts but I've slept about 2 hours in the last 30 so my brain is not really working)

The movie also reminded me about the odd grace really good rock climbers have, and now I'm wondering how feasible it is to go periodically to the climbing gym that's an hour and a bit away from home. Rock climbing is one of those things I've done off and on and always really enjoyed, but I haven't ever had consistent enough access to a place to train to actually get good at it. Alas.

Anyway. I should go say hi to some people, probably, but I may just go to the grocery store and then rest instead.

Comments

[wellthisisnice]

So! Close! Hang in there! \o/

[roguedemon]

Glad you got there safely. That is a lot of events for one day, but after your defense you will be very relieved and that will help. Just focus on preparation and take each event one after the other without thinking ahead. Hang in there.

Just seeing clips of Free Solo was enough to freak me out. I’m fascinated by the differences in brain functioning between someone like that and someone like me. Some people need that kind of risk for the stimulation or they get bored. I’m happy alone in the house with a book. Really different neurochemistres there.

[lilalanor]

So very much support and like, cheering on <3333