5 whines and 1 good thing
Feb. 27th, 2019 12:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sebenikela1. I took my prescription for Vyvanse to the pharmacy February 9. I ran out on Feb 13. I finally got my refill on Feb 23, two weeks after first asking for it. First, the pharmacist who can order things wasn't working until Wednesday, then they'd run out of the forms for ordering drugs (?!?!?!?! IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD TWO THOUSAND NINETEEN), then they had the forms but had to wait for the right pharmacist again... So not only did it take forever, they were constantly saying "oh we'll have it in a few days" so I didn't want to go to a different pharmacy.
I asked whether there was anything I could do to keep this from happening AGAIN, and the pharmacist said "well I just started in January, (implied: so all the other times this happened weren't my fault), and I don't think this will be an ongoing problem."
Great. Thanks.
I have to get prescriptions filled at CVS, because insurance, so I'm kinda stuck. But I'm going in early next month and asking them to please get their shit together on time, and if they treat me like I'm being unreasonable or drug-seeking I am going to lose it.
2. I have slept really badly the last few nights, and I think it's because of the whole "10 days without stimulants followed by full-dose stimulants" which makes me even more annoyed about the whole situation but also hopefully that means it'll get better soon. (I can't just take half doses because fancy slow-release Do Not Open This Capsule We Mean It)
3.
I am having a hard time keeping my blood sugar within reasonable range (by which i mean "I don't get shaky/random hot flashes/headaches" since I don't have a way to measure my own blood sugar), so I'm trying to eat more snacks and protein and things. I have also been gaining weight pretty much continuously for the last idk since I moved here. I don't know how much because I don't own a scale for brain reasons, but I bought new pants maybe 6 months ago because my old pants didn't fit, and now those are too tight for comfort.
Body, would you please fucking pick ONE of these problems? not both?
I am aware that my perceptions about food and weight are not reliable, but I am starting to be suspicious that the whole situation is worth further investigation. Especially the "even if I eat 3 meals and 2-3 snacks and one of those snacks is at 10pm, I still usually wake up shaky and lightheaded somewhere between 6 and 7 AM"
Alas, the solution probably involves putting more effort into choosing foods to eat. Possibly (sigh) health care professionals of some kind.
4. Related: brain, Instacart being less evil to its employees, you have needed groceries for a solid week, order them.
5. My back continues to be fucked up, evidenced most strongly by the part where one leg is now noticeably longer than the other (and I don't think it's the legs that are the problem because before 2 years ago this was never a thing). There's a "pain center" thing that has chiropractor/massage/physio/MD all in theory talking to each other, and it's in not unreasonable travel distance. I should probably see if I can get in to see someone.
I'm also trying to train myself to sleep on my back, rather than on my side, because even with my increasingly elaborate pillow arrangements, my shoulders still get crunched. Results are mixed so far, complicated by the part where I'm having trouble sleeping for unrelated reasons. Anybody have One Weird Trick to convince bodies they don't need to protect their internal organs while sleeping?
(honestly, i am brain-wise doing better than I was a month ago, but it's the kind of better where you get the capacity to start NOTICING the specific things that are fucking you up and thinking about maybe trying to do something about them, and it's... tiring.)
AND THE GOOD THING
My PhD thesis was officially approved by the external reviewers--not surprising, but still nice to hear. My work is not-terrible enough to be worth a doctorate. Yay me.
I asked whether there was anything I could do to keep this from happening AGAIN, and the pharmacist said "well I just started in January, (implied: so all the other times this happened weren't my fault), and I don't think this will be an ongoing problem."
Great. Thanks.
I have to get prescriptions filled at CVS, because insurance, so I'm kinda stuck. But I'm going in early next month and asking them to please get their shit together on time, and if they treat me like I'm being unreasonable or drug-seeking I am going to lose it.
2. I have slept really badly the last few nights, and I think it's because of the whole "10 days without stimulants followed by full-dose stimulants" which makes me even more annoyed about the whole situation but also hopefully that means it'll get better soon. (I can't just take half doses because fancy slow-release Do Not Open This Capsule We Mean It)
3.
I am having a hard time keeping my blood sugar within reasonable range (by which i mean "I don't get shaky/random hot flashes/headaches" since I don't have a way to measure my own blood sugar), so I'm trying to eat more snacks and protein and things. I have also been gaining weight pretty much continuously for the last idk since I moved here. I don't know how much because I don't own a scale for brain reasons, but I bought new pants maybe 6 months ago because my old pants didn't fit, and now those are too tight for comfort.
Body, would you please fucking pick ONE of these problems? not both?
I am aware that my perceptions about food and weight are not reliable, but I am starting to be suspicious that the whole situation is worth further investigation. Especially the "even if I eat 3 meals and 2-3 snacks and one of those snacks is at 10pm, I still usually wake up shaky and lightheaded somewhere between 6 and 7 AM"
Alas, the solution probably involves putting more effort into choosing foods to eat. Possibly (sigh) health care professionals of some kind.
4. Related: brain, Instacart being less evil to its employees, you have needed groceries for a solid week, order them.
5. My back continues to be fucked up, evidenced most strongly by the part where one leg is now noticeably longer than the other (and I don't think it's the legs that are the problem because before 2 years ago this was never a thing). There's a "pain center" thing that has chiropractor/massage/physio/MD all in theory talking to each other, and it's in not unreasonable travel distance. I should probably see if I can get in to see someone.
I'm also trying to train myself to sleep on my back, rather than on my side, because even with my increasingly elaborate pillow arrangements, my shoulders still get crunched. Results are mixed so far, complicated by the part where I'm having trouble sleeping for unrelated reasons. Anybody have One Weird Trick to convince bodies they don't need to protect their internal organs while sleeping?
(honestly, i am brain-wise doing better than I was a month ago, but it's the kind of better where you get the capacity to start NOTICING the specific things that are fucking you up and thinking about maybe trying to do something about them, and it's... tiring.)
AND THE GOOD THING
My PhD thesis was officially approved by the external reviewers--not surprising, but still nice to hear. My work is not-terrible enough to be worth a doctorate. Yay me.
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Date: 2019-02-27 06:09 pm (UTC)Body, would you please fucking pick ONE of these problems? not both?
Oh, mood. In all ways (although for me, it's--I am finding it hard to convince myself to eat anything, I keep catching myself going "what if I just didn't eat this meal" a lot and having to boss myself into eating much of anything, but I'm always hungry, even when I can't eat anything else and have just consumed a normal meal: but weight gain)
I got no good suggestions, but I feel that maddening "I am somehow becoming fat and yet not eating enough, what the actual fuck" feeling so hard.
ALSO CONGRATULATIONS ON THESIS
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Date: 2019-02-27 11:59 pm (UTC)Yay re: thesis and ouch/hugs regarding everything else.
Due to some diabetes and weight obsession in my family, I actually did a ton of reading on foods that are supposed to be good for both stable blood sugar and weight management. If you want someone to bounce practical ideas with, let me know.